How did I become so lost when only I had my map.
I see others far ahead , reaching their bright horizons , while mine grows darker and I fall ever further behind .
A mist clouds my mind denying any chance of quicker progress , every step , every thought an effort against this stifling fog .
I second , third , fourth guess myself , a slow but quickening desent into confusion and self doubt .
My strength is failing me as I inch forward only to find another chasm to cross or mountain to scale.
When did I become so numb that any hope of reaching my destination or finding some kind of resolution seems altogether impossible.
Maybe it’s time to stop , rest , just lye down and let the long sleep take me and time forget me .