Alone in the dark of my mind, how can i feel this small trapped within my own thoughts

Surging past me like a train,

Spinning me round like a hurricane,

Really don’t know what i’m feeling , second guessing myself leaves me reeling.

I wish i could switch off this pain, your sledge-hammer words strike again and again.

I want to yell i’m in trouble, but those words span the years , im smashed emotional rubble.

So I’m left to flounder and flail, metaphorical tiger caught by the tail.

Still alone in the hell in my head, sanity left me for dead.

I wish I could tell you , you caused this, but the thought of speaking out makes me nauseous.

I hope your happy I’m reduced to this small scared me, alone in the dark, lost at sea.