How did I become so lost when only I had my map.

I see others far ahead , reaching their bright horizons , while mine grows darker and I fall ever further behind .

A mist clouds my mind denying any chance of quicker progress , every step , every thought an effort against this stifling fog .

I second , third , fourth guess myself , a slow but quickening desent into confusion and self doubt .

My strength is failing me as I inch forward only to find another chasm to cross or mountain to scale.

When did I become so numb that any hope of reaching my destination or finding some kind of resolution seems altogether impossible.

Maybe it’s time to stop , rest , just lye down and let the long sleep take me and time forget me .