As the corners of my mind grow tortured

I forget the smell of wild orchids

Cannot recall birds morning song

My willful self hate carries on

No longer feel warm summer rain

A loathsome beast all that remains

Joyful laughter lost to me

A darkening veil all I can see

When first I wake a brief reprise

Then the world dissolves before my eyes

Now send my flesh to fiery hell

Where there is no sight and  is no smell

Just burning self-inflicted pain

My hopeless soul must here remain.